Five kings decision

Am I able to plan outy schedule on my own? I ought to agree that all of your plans are beneficial to me but I do have a limit in everything. It is impossible to get things done by 1 month. King arcious have planned to improve my English by reading newspaper and use 5 new words for each day. I know that my English is weak but you are just adding a burden on me. King dezard have been helping me in polytechnic, for example, he give me a brief review on the lesson so I am able to understand better.king Durehon think that I am an anti socialize person so he told me to gather more friends to help in my assignments, but I don't like to socialize with people. I have been putting mask everyday. It wasnt my character at all. king Leodales think that I am not fit to have those harsh training course in national service. King filopian just follow the lead of other four kings. You have the power to object but you refused bec you thought that it will defame your position in here. I gathered all of you bec I need all of you to assist and support me, not focusing on things that I don't feel like doing. By acting crazy in poly was to rebel abt your plans. I wrote this post as to express my agony towards other kings and vent my anger for being used as a puppet!

Study mood

I am starting to be much more confident than before. I usually hate to socialize with people but when arcious took the initiatives to socialize with people, my world is filled with colors. If you were to compare my secondary 2 attitude, I am much more antisocial person, without thinking about others. I do have a bit of jimson's character. I must continue my studies because I do not wan to provide a burden to the nations. Besides that, if I were to give up, I will be given reprimanded by others. I just wan to explain my secret talent that I found in my secondary two life. I found out that I am not alone in this world, I have people that counsel me and control my atitude. That why there are arcious, Leodales, dezard, durehon. King arcious was the one whOm changes my life. I really idolize him. He told me the way that humans love to do and teach me to adapt the environment I have. But now, he had been lead to astray. Now, I have dezard to help me. He told me to help Dixon as he really need my help. If i don't help him, who is willing to help him. Dezard told me this and I agree that I will help him. At last, it really show the results, he become my brother. I will not forget the process of getting this brother. I really treat him like my own brother bec he is the only person that I am able to share feelings with. People think that I am getting crazy bec of this voice in my ears. I really don't wan to lose them again bec they help me a lot. They are the one who inspire me to get o lvl, entering into a good polytechnic. They helped me in national examination, without them, I may enter ite. People may not believe bec they feel that it is just my imaginary or I am having psychology problem. I will not allow people to dispatch us bec we are united as one. God provide me this talent and I should treasure it and must not think that it is a bad problem. Okay, let me talk abt today event, a bit long winded. It's the fact. In the afternoon, I meet Dixon as I am planning to teach him chemistry. Then we head to bukit gombak gym. In teck whye Mac, I teach Dixon about the basic chemistry. He do not have the base so I was planning to make him learn the basic first before heading to the sophisticated level. After that, I saw Cindy. I talked to her and then I head to the bus stop to take a bus to gym. I am feeling bizarre about something. Why do most of the people feel that sharing things with the same sex is called gay, based On someone thoughts. I don't mean Dixon or edwin. Bec we treat each other like brothers. We share songs together and even knowledge. I just have the same analogy with Dixon and Edwin. Edwin was the one who teach me not to give up, fight for victory. Therefore, I am good in chemistry. Dixon thought me some things in my human life. He is changing over a new life and wan to excel in his education. No more no or giving up bec I just know that I have so many people supporting me, I cannot just give up just like a nerd. Dixon provide me some ideas for my project in polytechnic by using gym. I am trying to use his idea to do for my polytechnic projects. Dixon and Edwin, thank you, you did it , you changed my life and personality. Both of you are impressive, you changed the sinister thoughts of me in the past. I mean evil thought like cursing people to death. Dixon, you taught me something that I am able to use in my poly life, which is I am able to focus something when people looking at me. That's all folks.

Biological parents

I have been suspecting my parents since I knew that I was an orphan in this world. I am trying to convince myself that this biological parent is my real family members. I was envy by those children who have real parents, such as parents buying stuff for their kids, children were being given food to eat. Ever since my fake father gave me $20 every week for my school expenses, my fake step mother have not been paying a single cents on my clothes or other food expenses, she only provide me $30 every week. Therefore, I need to work during my school holiday so that I will have sufficient money for myself to spend. Let me elaborate abt the things that triggered this thought to be whirling in my mind,I went to bugis to get some pants for myself in polytechnic. Before going to bugis street, we went to illuma. I brought a large cup of coffee bean. She did not pay my coffee but instead, she paid for my small brother. Is this parent are my real one? Besides that，the pants that was brought in bugis street, was using my money to pay. Last night, I also have a weird dream. A reaper and an angel came forward to me. Reaper just give me two skulls, the angel told me that my thoughts are real. If it wasnt the four other people to stop me, I would have exposed this to my parents. I think my so called siblings are my kin right now. They treat me like I am their siblings, especially Ker sing, Edwin, Dixon.

Enjoyable day

I have a great time with this new brother, Dixon. I taught him chemistry then I realize that he was weak in the basic. Well, I will teach him from the basic. I am worried that I will not be able to make it as it is only 6 more months to his o lvl. I am busy with my polytechnic assignments and course work. Can I make it in time to finish his notes? Readers do you know why I wan to help this boy? I am not despise him, but he is willingto change Over a new leaf. How can I rejected? I was just following the prophecy given by the white&black men. I did not regretted in meeting him. In the past, I have been asking myself whether it is worth to mix with him. No offence, that day he asked me to teach him science, I was shocked. It may be just facebook but he was Jimson friend. Jimson helped me a lot in my life,he counsel me and teaches me to be self discipline. In the past, I used to drink alcohol to control myself but Jimson told me that it was harmful. Moreover, I wan to have this friend in the past but once I stepped out of the school, I give up hope already. Therefore, Jimson and jun Feng were my friends after i leave the school. People have been asking me why I added him as brother. I don't know either, bec I have the feeling that he was at the same age as me and the person that I can share secrets with. He is very open minded unlike someone. Dixon and I were in Mac talking abt academic stuff and I pass him the 400 mcq regarding chemistry. If you are willing to learn, I will pass you what I know. I am okay de. Then, we took 985 to bukit gombak gym. I saw Lucius ad he was changed. I asked him how is he coping in school. He said that he was fine and apparently studying in republic poly. I am pushing dixon to singapore polytechnic. Then I will become his senior..... Hehe. He is starting to be fear bec of the stress in his academic studies. Maybe I will push his Chinese grade to at least B4 but it depend whether I have the sufficient time to meet him and teach him. I love to become a teacher so teaching him is a way to gain experience. After a workout in gym and two sets of jubeat, I am starting to adapt the polytechnic life. I must work harder as I have many people behind me to support. Brothers and sisters, you are the one who kept on encourage me. I will work harder with my might

happy and sad moment

Apparently, i am a retard in computer system but with some IT experts in my ears, i can assure that i can pick up things in no time. I shouldnt have taken up any IT courses as i am keen i studying science and business. Never mind, we should take time to adapt the new environment. Let's not talk about sad moment.

I am happy that I have a new siblings. Dixon. I will write more abt him tonite.

Remain alone

I do not know what should i post such an early afternoon.
I just want to start this post as i do not know what should i do in here.
It is the first time that i started posting in 11square in singapore polytechnic.
It help me recalled a lot of memories with my classmates. We were playing frisbee and even sat in group to play 7-up. It may be childish but it could enhance the bonding between us. I have been silent since morning as i dreamed about my parent are biological. Haiz, it was true in the first place, what is there to be depressed about. I must learn to be lenient to most of the things. When it is time to forgive or forget, just do it. I mustn't be petrified because i still have a team to lead. If i fall or faint right now, i do not know what will happen next. All i could say was that i was get on my life.

In singapore polytechnic

Life was harsh for me when i enter into singapore polytechnic.
It may be fun but i really miss those days when there were teachers guiding us.
I have to be attentive in order to follow the procedure that the teacher is teaching
I wan to go back to hillgrove secondary school. I dont know what to post either but i just wan to say that starbuck in polytechnic taste suck.

Unexpected afternoon and evening

Before writting the details abt the event that happened today, I just wan to thank someone. His name is called Dixon. My first impression towards him is that he is a bit gangster, have the character of Marcus heng. Therefore, I did not communicate with him during school because I don't even know him in the first place. I will post something that changes my mind. He asked me whether I am able to teach him physics as he is starting to feel more interested in this subject. I cannot rejected as I have promised someone that i should help those in need. If I can meet someone that is able to share my problem with, it is good to be friends. I am not going to elaborate the things that we do in Mac or gym or even meeting zhi Jie at bukit gombak. All I could said was that I meet a new friend. Best friends, so called siblings or normal friends. I am still thinking abt the status that I should give me. I have to ask someone that was being promoted during last night. Dixon, I can help you in your o. I just wan to tell you that you have to work harder, must not give up, don't be pusillanimous, you must fight. You are my first friend that I help in academic studies so you have to try to get better than me or the same point. Two brains are better than one. Send me an email if you need to seek my help.

Regretted

In the previous blog, I said that I have five souls. It is true or it may be just my talents. In the past, I said that arcious was the most sensible person to rely on. I just gave him three months and he create tons of troubles. First, he causes conflict between Marcus. Now, he create mess between Chuan Yi and Leon. Well, I do not know what he will do next. I think I should come out now to end this problem and I will apologize to those who Arcious have been hurting. I guess things are about to change when it is under my control. No more happiness, only loneliness and a sinister heart.

My friends and brothers

I am going to write abt the process of getting this brothers and friends this year. I am starting to realize what is the meaning of bro and friends. Other people have this analogy. Best friends is similar to brothers relationship. However, I do not share the same views as them. For everyone added on fb siblings section, I will treat you like gods-brothers or god- sisters. I will not neglect you unless you did something hurtful. What do I mean by hurtful? Only Edwin know. I told him before. After talking to him, I am feeling much more comfortable.I think I explain before how I met Edwin, Chuan Yi and Leon. They are my brothers. Hehe...:). I feel like talking abt the friends that I met at Singapore polytechnic. I shall not explain in details abt my classmates and Zheng yang friends. I did not know my classmates well, I only know that someone was controlling my body during the gathering. Zheng yang was my best friend as I said earlier on so I do not have to explain either. I hope that we can do project with ease. Haha.... I will be teaching Dixon tomorrow and I will be treating him my close friend just like Jimson. I will talk abt Dixon for the next post.:)

The last day of freshmen day

Time do flies.... It is already thursday. We did flag day in the morning. I woke up at 5.15am so that I have sufficient time to prepare myself to meet Zheng yang and his friends at choa chu kang station. For no reasons, I am not late.... I am improving. Then we took the train to kembangan to meet the rest of our group members. In the train, we talked about lifestyle and even our favorite songs. We like the same songs, this show that we have things to talk in the future. After meeting the rest at kembangan, we went to a nearby coffee shop for breakfast. I was not hungry and not thirsty. Therefore I wAs sitting at the coffee shop to chat with the rest. I am not going elaborate the details that we chat. After chatting for about 1 hour, we split into two groups. Zheng yang was in my team. It was just a two man team. We continued talking abt the flag day and other stuffs. I manage to get $100 for my flag day and I will not win the top 10 bec I do not have any confident in it. We meet the others at kfc abt 12.30pm. I was late and I am so sorry abt it. It was my fault, not Zheng yang fault. I asked him to wait for me while I was still asking people for donations. Zheng yang did not blame me for delaying the time but I hope that the class can understand one simple principle that I have. I will fulfill the goals and put in efforts to fulfill my goals. I am still unfamiliar with the classmate, I Am just acting during the class. This was what boiboi members teaches me. If you are unfamiliar with the people that was surrounded you, just act that you are like them. I copied their actions and use it during class, how convience. Just allow the time that we have in class to get used with each others.

I will tAlk abt Zheng yang, as he was the second best friend I have since 10 years ago. It was quite hard to find a best friend. He introduced me his friends and his friends did not mind either. thanks for intro me so many friends. Sorry for the troubles. His friends become my friends and we went to the freshmen party together. It was fun as there were laughter filled in the environment. Thanks for everything, best friend. Hehehe. I really enjoy this few days. Haha

Office hour

There are many people in the train right now. I guess I have to leave my house early in order to avoid packed train. I have been thinking a lot while I was alone in the train. For example, why must people invented train or technology? When technology came in handy, human are intending to be much more lazy and it may polluted the environment. Let talk about the environment since I have nothing to write in this post. The population has been increasing over the year. There wasn't sufficient land for us to stay. As we know, a shelter is a basic nessities for humanity. Without shelter, we will not get warm or continue in our living. Take for an example, the extinct animals. Many people are invented different gadgets for the humanity to improve their standard of living. As such, iPhone or other brand of smart phone in the market. More than 10 gadgets were invented within the world each day. As we can see that iPhone has been a basic item for our everyday life, without it, we do not know how to live. iPhone promotes convenient lifestyle for everyone. We can go online, write a blog or even relieve our stress from our workplace. If many people are using more than 2 gadgets per day, we are just causing pollution to the earth. Global warming have been showing effect to the earth, and we just take it lightly.

I have to end here bec I am going to lesson right now. Posting again at nite or I will post at deviantart

Second day in polytechnic

I am feeling astonished by the event that happened today. It was ironic that I am able to mix with two classmates today. During my first day in polytechnic, I am such a pusillanimous person, which causes me to remain quiet at all moment. At the classroom, everyone's eyes were on a joker guy, a mixture of curiosity and mockery. He was just trying to make the class more lively and less nervous. I am amazed to meet such person at polytechnic. After introducing ourselves, we proceed to the game activities that was organized by the DMIT members, a amazing race. We were discussing abt the clues that we have and we put on our thinking caps. Well, it was simple to mix around when you are willing to take the first move.I guess this is the fundamental step on being a socialize person. I will start to write in singlish standard because it is hard to write a perfect blog.:) am I a sophisticate person? Do I changed a lot after meeting the boiboi family? I guess so... The whole Facebook comment have been stating that I have changed? I start my first conversation by asking him for his course and we began to talk our activities. Then is to reassure the class. I bet I am going to have a great day with my two new friends tomorrow. One is called Xiao yang and other, I forgot....hehe That's all folks

Reborn from the doom

After so many months sticking under the coffin of the doom, I am alive again. You will think that it is crap but I am just someone. Some rules have to be changed in order to show my full potential work in my academic studies. What is this king doing? He is obsessed with his idol which make him no advantage. Waste of time. Love relationship? I thought he swore to us abt not getting a relationship till he was 21 years old. How can he lie to member of the republic? A legal action should be taken to amend his mistakes. no mercy should be given as mistakes is the place you are not observated enough.

First day in polytechnic

It was the bad idea of entering in Singapore polytechnic. My course do have only 2 girls. Therefore, it will be a bit difficult for me to socialize as I usually mix around with girls. There is always the first time in everything, I guess. When all of us united as one, I don't think I should be afraid abt mixing around with ppl. It is the DMIT activities tomorrow and I am afraid it will be going to be a exhauste day for me... I don't know how can I start the conversation with ppl in my course, I have to show my bravery and courage in this section. whatever it is, just focus on your academic, if you don't have people to group with, I don't think you cannot do it yourselves as you have us to help you. Going to write a short post for now.... Tired

My brothers(Edwin,Leon, Chuan yi)

I delete the pAst post bec I am going to edit some changes in that post due to some consideration. Well, let me just Combine the two events that happened on Thursday and firday. Let me begin with Edwin first as he is my big bro. I knew him during tuition lesson. The first day that he entered into the tuition class, he was so quiet. He was located besides me as the class was split into two sections. One side is for the ladies and the other section was for the gentleman. Hmm... I forgot the ways that make me communicate with him. I remember we were playing yugioh and then working at greenlam together. After that, he just tell me the solution to some problems. I just make him to become my big bro because he did not look down on me, or even telling him my problem. I just know that he was a good person in earth, maybe 20% out of the whole population in the earth. When I told my parents about him, they said it is okay for me to name him as big bro.... Haha... He is a bit tied up with his Academic studies in junior college. Big bro, don't Be so stressed up with your school work, I will support you!!!!Jia you.... You will excel!!! Last evening, we meet other At burger king to play yugioh cards, as we Have the same hobby..... It is good that you are the open minded. One of your sentence that you said last night, make me feel that it is worth to call you big bro... Haha(100% gans)

I will talk about Chuan Yi and Leon. We do have a great time on last thursday in bugis. We can have so much fun in cooking. The saddest moment is that I could eat your meat.T.T but it is okay, I will get both of you for sure. I treat both of you for Seoul garden because I wan to keep you fat fat so I could eat more meat....chey..I just wan to treat my brothers, can I? Chuan Yi kept on pestered me by asking whether I wan to eat fish a not. I hate fish due to a past incident that happened to me during my primary school days. Leon was a bit quiet at first, maybe it was to adapt the environment. Same over here. Luckily we have Chuan Yi jokes to ease ourselves and make ourself like from the same army. We took a rest at illuma coffee bean as to allow to have a sip of ice mocha. It's taste so heavenly. I remember the flavor and the scent of the coffee. Cy played my iPhone and made it disable for me to use. Then Leon and cy keep on spamming message...for example" am I handsome chey...chey chey chey chey chey.." I know that they were joking and make me feel so "stress free!" it is worth to make them as brothers too. sorry that I have been boastful during makan time at Seoul garden. I just wan to test whether if all of you could endure this attitude. I learnt this from one of friend but I couldn't take it as I am unable to endure his behavior so we become much more like stranger. I just wan to adjust myself, how should I treat both of you when we are in the real world not in cyber.... In the end, I found the way to treat both of you. I don't have to wear like so grand when meeting you. Ps for being dressed so formal as one of my friend Marcus is so forced on people attire in order to go out with him. So gay leh.... I also did not regret in knowing both of you. Let me express the changed percentage in treating both of you.(40% gans,30% like buddies,20% super best friends, 10% best friends) so complicated but just name you brothers can le because brother percentage outweight the most than the other category. You are just my left hand to me. Whenever I am feeling so stress or down, you can make me laugh and smile. Thanks you for giving me advice in clothings and accompany me to bugis street. I hope that we can go out again.

My thoughts

I do not understand how Singaporean kids were being taught during their young age. Should there parents be blame for or should we just blame the environment that the kids live in? Well, it was a good question to start the blog post. I have been busy in researching 吴克群 songs and his background. I feel like a PI.....:) however, most of the singaporean kids or guy think that researching abt a guy singer is so much similar like a GAY..... I do not understand why do Singaporean kids do have this feeling? I email to my Japan buddy and he say that it is normal. You like the songs and it is worth to relax while listening to the songs. I really wan to migrate out of Singapore once i have my degree because it is not worth living in such a devil world with people saying your actions are so gay. Even if his actions is so gay, but he did nothing to you..... It is normal when he still have feelings to girl..... I also have to scold myself..... If people look so gay, you still can communicate with him. Just his actions not his feelings...... Moreover, kids have too much freedom is a bad thing. They will mix around with different variety of people and begin to lean something cool from them, even it is bad...... I cannot imagine what singapore is heading to..... Girls are getting more wild, guys are beginning to be obsessed in muscle building and guy do have much more stress than girl in Singapore. I really cannot live in such a disguising world.....people backstabbing others in order to gain promotion. I really do not get it, where do singaporeans become like this, is it because of the technology changes or the ages change..... I am migrating to Macau. I need a life that is much more peaceful with no stubborn head people and stressl-less in workin place..... I would rather suffer from disaster and could united as one like japan did. Please throw a disaster to this evil Singapore, they are getting much more demanding......:(

Well, like not talk about some cruel people, why not just talk abt real friends. I meet up hui Li and Lukas to go k box to sing songs. We have great moment together, maybe I am getting to be more bold in doing things. I am not alone, I still have my army to support my back. I guess this was my reason for being bold. I sang a lot of 飞轮海和吴克群 songs. I am happy to sing their songs bec it was my dream. I was planning to go taiwan next year If I manage to persuade them..... It was not a easy job..... Haiz, going to meet my brothers in bugis.... I wonder will I have such happy moments like Lukas and hui Li.... It was tough to type a post in the blogspot while taking the train..... Time to get serious with my math tomorrow, not researching abt 吴克群 background..... Devin, you have to study hard and play hard, not play hard and study less.....

A truth that must remain hidden

I know that I have not post or update this blog lately. I am too busy to update as I have to settle my premath stuff before entering to the poly. I think I will not tell my step parents that I found out the truth of the faking parent thingy. I don't understand why they must keep from me? I am already going to eighteen and life was still miserable to me. I was being told that my real father had given my step parents a large sum of money. However, I will not get it back from them bec I just tell myself that they have been supporting since young. I wish that I could see my parents' tomb before I die. I want to search their tomb and pay respect to them. Why must I be the unlucky one? Thank god for giving such a talent that I still have people to consel me. If not, I would have sucide due to my step parents. Well, life still have to go on, I guess. Life wasn't just play study and working. It consists of a lot of feeling and tough obstacles. Okay, let put this aside. Talk abt happy moment. I will be meeting Chuan Yi and Leon on 7/4 to purchase some clothing before entering into polytechnic. I am starting to regret that why I didnt choose the junior college path. I guess my step parents do not wan me to stress up. I will be meeting Lukas, hui Li on Wed to gather some old memories during my secondary life. People will spread the rumors that I was with hui Li. It was not the first time, I don't care abt the rumors bec I have enough since secondary 3-5. She is a girl, she will have feelings, tears have been shed bec of some of the rumors. Why couldn't human stop vilified people life. They have feelings and they néed happiness. If everyone could stop defaming or spread rumors to damage his reputation, there wouldn't be disaster, people dying due to heart attack and sadness. I do not have any happiness so I don't expect to live after the age of 27. This age was my deadline told by the prophecy. I only believe the power an talents given by the god. I am afraid to stay at home already after knowing that my parents are steps.吴克群 rocks, he is my idol I guess.XD. I love the songs sang by him bec those sadness sang by him could give me a lot of flashback.

The truth is being revealed

I am an orphan. My parents have been out of this mortal world for more than 17 years and I found out that this parents now is my step parents. I understand why do they treat Derrick much more better than me. I found this truth through my grandmother abt 3 hrs before I posted this. She told me that my parent have died because of a car accident and this step father is my father best friend. After that, my father asked my step father to look after me. My step father is my father so called siblings. Just like gans. Just like white man told me that I am not the person that you expected. My father is a commander in the army and my mother is a vet. From today, I carried down their genes. I love to read up wars affairs like my father and I can feel what the animals was thinking abt, I guess it was my mother genes. Who am I anyway? Where is my real parents buried? Should I expose this to my step parents? What should I do? Should I just remain silent and just remain the matter unexposed? I need more opinion. Let me dream abt you,white and black man. You are the person who can help me now. I miss my parents badly, should I join you in the underworld. Pls give me opinion,father

No feeling

Shoot...................... My feeling is lost. I could not find back my own feeling. My left head is a bit headache, Why? After running, it cause this headache.... Why does it always happen on this day? My eyes hurt too. Irriated by the pain. I am getting tired and lost already. I have my cold power....