A truth that must remain hidden

I know that I have not post or update this blog lately. I am too busy to update as I have to settle my premath stuff before entering to the poly. I think I will not tell my step parents that I found out the truth of the faking parent thingy. I don't understand why they must keep from me? I am already going to eighteen and life was still miserable to me. I was being told that my real father had given my step parents a large sum of money. However, I will not get it back from them bec I just tell myself that they have been supporting since young. I wish that I could see my parents' tomb before I die. I want to search their tomb and pay respect to them. Why must I be the unlucky one? Thank god for giving such a talent that I still have people to consel me. If not, I would have sucide due to my step parents. Well, life still have to go on, I guess. Life wasn't just play study and working. It consists of a lot of feeling and tough obstacles. Okay, let put this aside. Talk abt happy moment. I will be meeting Chuan Yi and Leon on 7/4 to purchase some clothing before entering into polytechnic. I am starting to regret that why I didnt choose the junior college path. I guess my step parents do not wan me to stress up. I will be meeting Lukas, hui Li on Wed to gather some old memories during my secondary life. People will spread the rumors that I was with hui Li. It was not the first time, I don't care abt the rumors bec I have enough since secondary 3-5. She is a girl, she will have feelings, tears have been shed bec of some of the rumors. Why couldn't human stop vilified people life. They have feelings and they néed happiness. If everyone could stop defaming or spread rumors to damage his reputation, there wouldn't be disaster, people dying due to heart attack and sadness. I do not have any happiness so I don't expect to live after the age of 27. This age was my deadline told by the prophecy. I only believe the power an talents given by the god. I am afraid to stay at home already after knowing that my parents are steps.吴克群 rocks, he is my idol I guess.XD. I love the songs sang by him bec those sadness sang by him could give me a lot of flashback.