The truth is being revealed

I am an orphan. My parents have been out of this mortal world for more than 17 years and I found out that this parents now is my step parents. I understand why do they treat Derrick much more better than me. I found this truth through my grandmother abt 3 hrs before I posted this. She told me that my parent have died because of a car accident and this step father is my father best friend. After that, my father asked my step father to look after me. My step father is my father so called siblings. Just like gans. Just like white man told me that I am not the person that you expected. My father is a commander in the army and my mother is a vet. From today, I carried down their genes. I love to read up wars affairs like my father and I can feel what the animals was thinking abt, I guess it was my mother genes. Who am I anyway? Where is my real parents buried? Should I expose this to my step parents? What should I do? Should I just remain silent and just remain the matter unexposed? I need more opinion. Let me dream abt you,white and black man. You are the person who can help me now. I miss my parents badly, should I join you in the underworld. Pls give me opinion,father