Golden days

I am making use of this time to write out a post in 3A1-5A1 life. During my secondary three life,I knew Eric as my first friend. He was sitting behind me and we chat together oftenly till miss Toh scolding us. We were a combined class, therefore i was newbie at that moment. We were so focused in our work as we wan to achieve something, which is promoting to secondary five to complete our studies. I guess we do it together. As for someone, I am feeling so sorry about your tragedy, just worked hard and achieve more in poly okay. I knew that I was being selfish as I wan to achieve something by using a sly way. I am not going to mention names over here . Well, the past is the past, let start with a new fresh start. About the end of my secondary three term, I knew ker sing. She was so emo at the back so I was planning to walk forward to talk to her. I did not expect that we were friends till now. I knew brandon, wen da and san Lian during my cca. I was new at there and they kept on bully me joke with me, joking...(^-^)。did not expect that they teaches me so many things that could be use in my life. Thanks.^^ opps..... I almost forgot something. Hui Li.... I remember that I was joking about the relationship with hui Li and everyone was making fun at me. I was a clown for the class I guess. In secondary four life, my classmates starting to know the kings and curse power. I do not know whether they trust it or making fun with it. The people who try to make fun with it wont have a happy ending, this was what the prophecy said. Marcus was a joker in the class. He disturb me and distracted with the class. Same for Justin. I am feeling irriated by that, haix thanks god it is over. Noe, secondary five life. Everyone began to slow down their engine and do not wan to focus more on their education but instead the boys kept on thinking about gym. I was being tasked by mr Teo to do group work with yah ting, Ker sing and Kah hao. I don't know how Kah hao was doing, I just know that he was acting so cool and almost have the same attitude as Marcus moo but he is a bit caring. He love to eat the strawberry hi-chew that san Lian always bring. Moreover, he spend most of his time sleeping. I don't know whether my classmates is childish a not. Always say this and this is couples. Haix, I think that everyone have grow to the better. I always use my handphone in sch by hiding it at my large pencil box. Oppx, I forgot to mention abt shi hui, Winnie, Zong kai, si jin and jun kiat. Shi hui always protect me lol. Whenever Zong kai(zk) disturb me, shi hui and Winnie will stop him and beat him. I remember we drew a picture of him. Big pig nose, a rounded face and many more, I forgot the facial features already as it was so long ago. Si jin will walk forward to Brandon and chit chat so I will join their conversation. Nothing special to talk abt si jin as we don't usually communicate . Last one will be Jun kiat. I am still contacting him thru msn, we chat like friEnds bah. I chat with him often as he was sitting behind me. Haix, time do fly. One blink of eye, it is drawing nearer to my doom. 5A1, I miss all of you. I know it is hard to gather all of you together as one but I will remember about the marina barrage deeply in my heart. It may be just a few moment but once it was just like caved inside of my hearts. Zong kai also like bad romance song. I am hearing it while posting. I really miss those insults that you do to me, zk. I miss those funny joke that Brandon did, Ker sing, I miss those moment that we sing together, Jun Kiat, I miss those moments that you chat about lifestyle, shi hui, I miss those time that you chase zk, Winnie too. Oh yong Jie. He was so loud in the class and he was a chairperson. If he did not wear uniform, I thought he was a leader of the gangster.XD. He usually say some jokes to the whole clas. Yong Jie, work hard Nd don't give up bec of some sets back. Choon Cheng too. I remember miss zhang was teaching about some concepts about poa and she mention poor cc, so we named it as poor Choon Cheng. Haha. Choon Cheng usually accompany me during recess time. We chat with a group of bb candidate and eat burger with yoon loon. Haix, those moment ended so fast. How I wish i could turn back the time. 5A1, work towards our goals and we shall meet together as one when we are fated to do so. Those names mention in here were the person thAt I will remember deeply in my hearts. ThAnk you 5A1, you have given me a great moment in my secondary school life.

Ecstatic

I am using this word as my title for this blog as I am having this feeling right now. What do you call friends or classmates? Friends are not classmates. I did not know that my classmates treat me like a close friend since the past. Maybe I am not in my usual self when I was studying in secondary school. They did not insult me but they treat me like a friend. I starting to understand the meaning of friends. I followed them to my former secondary school to collect my results and we went to west mall. We walked around the shop and even chit Chat like the usual. Talking, laughing and even playing at the arcade. I must treasure them not hurting them. After that, we went to lot 1 to sing Kbox. $6 for 2 hours. It may be expensive but I enjoy the moment.happiness cannot be brought through money. We may not be hyper state but I know that we have a great time in there. Brandon was talking abt universal studio after the Kbox while eating kfc. I really miss the olden day when we have in secondary school. We sit in group and talk abt our life and discuss abt the latest technology. I have changed after meeting them. Yah ting, you helped me solve a lot of problem. Wend, sry abt the past. I remember I gotten bashed by you in the library because I insulted you and acting so proud. If you did not bashed me, I won't change. This punch really teach me to be more caring to others. Thank you, my close friends. I hope we can meet up often and we try to go universal studio again to play and enjoy. Now, I wan to answer some questions. Why do I love ks at first? I know that the whole class have already knew that I and ks was one item before. I am not desperate for love relationship. I am just to make her as my puppet. I wan to know how deep is my feeling for her. After that, I realized that I treat her like a sister. I promised myself that I won't marry a woman if I could afford a family or unstablize my education or job. As much people was saying, love is blind but I have someone to provide the advice. Singing in Kbox is so fun, my voice Is so sux. I really begin to know why my classmates called me to shut up when I sing. Life was full of up and down. If you know how to manage your life, you will have no problems in doing such things again. Bro, happy birthday(Leon). Siblings united, friends will remain as close as usual. Thank you god. You allow me to understand the meaning of devils and angels.I will post about my classmates for the next post. I mean a detail one

Feeling much more emo

Why must i have this feeling? I am feeling much more down after working today. What am i doing since today? i am not focusing on my work and i am just thinking about my ex girlfriend after breaking up with her for more than 3 years. What things trigger this thinking or this thoughts. I do not know what to do already, i am just putting my heart and soul into a colder world in order to make me happy

Freedom of sadness

I do not know why must I have this feeling? If I were to break up the woman that I once loved before, I will have a flashback of the event. Tears began to rolled down my cheek while posting this post. I am unable to forget the first love that I have in my secondary three. What should I do? If I cannot forget about my first lover, how can I find another one to replace her. I am able to feel the presence of love. I am going to explain about some events that I have with her. I remember we started in mount Fuji. I was being selected to Japan field trip organized by my school. I worked so hard as to achieve this field trip. As u know that Japan is so large, you will need a bus to transport u from one location. I was sitting besides my classmates and she was sitting behind me. After the field trip in mount Fuji, we were heading towards osaka. I went to the back of the bus to take a short nap before reaching Osaka. She asked me whether She could seat besides me. I have no objections because I just to replenish my energy by sleeping. After two hours later, I woke up but we have not reach our destination. I could feel sth heavy on my shoulder. I turned my head and I saw her sleeping on my shoulder. At that moment, I understand what was love. After a moment, our teacher in charge woke us up as we are reaching osaka. My first girlfriend name is called syafiqah(sya), she looked at me and smiled at me. I am able to recall her face clearly. At Hiroshima museum, she was scared abt those figures so she hold tightly on my hands. This was how we began our relationship. We took pictures together, I entered her room but I never did anything stupid. At the airplane, we separated in the seating location. We smiled each other and said this:" I love you, my feeling will be with you no matter where are you." At school, we share food together, hold hands together and I even wait for her to leave her cca. We share a piece of nuggets by placing it in between our mouth, we eat until we..... First kiss. I stopped the kiss after few hours, then she said she want more so..... However, the relationship is so short. My parents found out that i have a lover so we broke up. After that day, we anti each other as tp fulfill our parents' promise.My feeling is still with her, the date we started was 28 may 2008- 6 august 2008. This was how arcious name was created. I provided her with love and my finger ring represent her. This name remind me that I should stay alive and continue my life without giving up. Sya, if we have the chance to patch things up, I would. I will name my son as arcious if I am married

Reflection after reading

Indeed, the friendship is gone already. We rarely SMS each others, meeting out for makan. All of these are gone.please refer to deviantart for details abt my girlfriend. I will be posting it during late night for today. Wa Liao...... A ugly woman kept on pester me to be her bro and I dont wan bec she is damn ugly. If you caught sight of her back view, u think she is a chio bu, but once she turn her head around, u will vomit and take it as u are seeing a monster. I don't know how to elaborate her appearance but I can tell you was ghosts may run away from her. Haiz, thanks god I am quitting soon. I cannot wait for 1 and 4 April to come. No money leh...... Wa Liao must work more It show before my bank went dry. I really have to come a concepts abt saving money. I feel like telling what I am talking now....but it was imperial secret said by a person that cannot be revealed. Bye~~

A feeling of love

How should I begin with this post? Hmm.... How abt talking this loving progress? Well, loving someone can be troublesome but the process is much more fun than expected. My gf mum asked my gf to throw my doreamon that I give her and the stick that I gave her as a birthday present. She saw my blog and tears rolling down from her cheek. After hearing this, I could sense a sharp pain on my heart. Is this called love or I just feeling sad for her? Pity her, was my idea at first but after a few minutes, my heart is pounding at a faster rate. What should I do now? She was deeply in love with me. I can feel the presence of love within the environment.why must love be so complicated? My inner still love her but at the outside, I don't love. If I dont see her, I miss her and love her, even cry for her. In the end, I am starting to feel what is love again. Now I have this thought!!!!! I starting to feel that i should get love from someone bec I am not fit for her. I cannot afford a girlfriend expenses, how can I be her boyfriend If I cannot provide gd things for my girlfriend. I am a bitch bastard and a fucking. Shld I continue this relationship? God just tell me what to do? Or shld I seek help from the boiboi member to decide? I am getting worried and feeling heartbroken. I wan to my gf to have a gd life for the future and follow me to be as poor as me.

Berserk

I really cannot give up this relationship because the heart still have that thing. What should I do? If I were to press the send button, everything will just go bye bye. I did study abt the a math aroun the morning. It was quite fun and keen of learning everything at one goal but, I have to work at 2pm so I wish that I have the determination to continue. If I dont settle this problem as soon as possible, I will go berserk and my bank account will go dry. Due to purchasing of alcoholic drink to subset the pain in my heart. I still have the doreamon on my bag and I really miss that day. What the he'll..... Now I really wan to change my heart and character to the coldest. Ppl will say I am crazy and mental problem bec of the guardian or kings thingy, but I think it was my talent now. It help me a lot to change for the better....

A deep thoughts

I did not manage to post last night as I was very tired after a 5hours of work and some window shopping at jurong point. However, i was not working seriously yesterday as I was thinking how to break up with my girlfriend. Why must I break up with her if I still love her? Why must I confess with her then break up after a few weeks? What make me do this decision of breaking up? I still remember that I was in love with her during my secondary school life. Now, I manage to get her love, but I want to break up with her. What am I doing? Am
I a bastard? What should I do? After makin her to be my girlfriend, I thought of going out with her oftenly and many more. We shared food together and care each other. I really don't know what shld I do? If I really do not dare to break up with her, I guess I will still continue this relationship till I went to hong kong. I have already asked my brothers for some comments. Chuan Yi just tell me some ways that I could do, but I don't dare to press the send button. Let change the topic now. I still can remember that I went to ngee Ann poly open house with Marcus moo. We did have a lot of fun and we talked like we were in polytechnic. We went to bugis street to buy shirts, pants and many more. He even ask the girl in the naruto shop whether she is married.+_+" we laugh like a mad person, but now everything changed to the worst. He begin to ignore me, but we said we become friends lol. If friends don't chat oftenly, there will be a slight change in my friendship. Haiz, things do changes when the earth kept on rotating. Hope for the better then

Puzzled life

In order to live, must human give up sth in order to gain something that they wanted. I don't know the answer, I just feel that giving up something is a way for you to learn. I am going to study math again in poly. What the fcuk. But it is okay to learn it as I love math a lot. I don't know whether I should give up. Leon was telling me to follow my instinct, I am just going straight to the main point. What do I want? What am I searching for? Education? Friendship? Or my imaginary friends? If I were to say I almost commit sucide bec of my family? Will u believe? I am just stating the fact. If it wasn't my imaginary friends have been helping me or guiding me, I would have been dead by now. I told myself to live to the fullest. I wan to mix more friend and learn adapt their lifestyle. Experiences are the best learning process. All I have to say for today was to thank leon for advicing me.

bugis street

I will be posting exactly the same as deviantart for today only.
Maybe i am giving a brief of my new brother, leon. He was quite okay lol, can accompany me to chat thru sms till my phone went flat. Iphone is really consuming a lot of batteries power. WHy not just put nuclear power in it? :) joking..... if we put nuclear power, i am sure that we are going to die once we got the phone. We discussed abt the cooking prodecure of cooking leon. He do not scared of us eating him. HAiz, much more better than marcus moo. In the past, i thought marcus was much more cool but i have a change in mindset. He was just using his knowledge to make him feel cool. I am not defaming him but i am just stating the fact. No evidence but i got it through feeling. I wondered leon, marcus, chuan yi, edwin. Who will be the best? I guess i dont have to consider or do not dare to consider bec edwin is my big bro. He treated me well but he got GCE A lvl to study so we have lesser time to communicate. The key point of leon was he was quite a pia kia based on my first impression. I wondered if all of the bro can go to genting, i cannot imagine what happened. Dont think too much, pls be mature thank you. I can tell you, it will be much more better than expected. I went to bugis street to walk walk look look with the different design of clothes. Still deciding but i am going to get some clothes on the 4 of april where i am going to kill chuan yi and leon for their meat. YUMMY<3 I AM HUNGRY. I am a monster i wan to eat human flesh. Leon hope that we can be bro forever. I really starting to lose the friendship between marcus. I dont know why either, maybe got chuan yi and leon. i guess there is no purpose in talking to a doom tablet.

My life was changed.

I have become much more socialize then before. Maybe I was being influence by Marcus. I guess. Hmm.... What should I post today? Why not I just post about things that related to my life? Let start from Marcus since I mistaken him(always). Marcus thought me to be brave? I think so.... Not only that, I feel that he was trying to tell me to stay away from him. But nvm, I don't wan to lose a friend indeed. He have so many friends....jealous? I think so.... . Why am I jealous abt him? He can do it and why can't I? Bec got prophecy and procedure to follow. He cannot make me laugh like Chuan Yi jokes....... He cannot make me happy like what leon do in msn?... I guess. If a human has two path to choose, I would rather not meet Marcus. I will not be much closer to Marcus anymore, don't ask me why? Feeling? Now, let talk abt Ker sing..... I begin to feel that my life is so restricted, cannot jio chio bu, cannot talk to chio bu, where is life? I want my man character back, gg her lol. I have a good news too. I met two bro which is Chuan Yi and leon. I am damn happy to meet both of them. They make my life more colorful than before. They told me a lot of jokes and cheer me up when I am unhappy. Hope that big bro won't get mad. XD. I don't understand why I wan to make Marcus as bro? Is it because to gain his fame? What are bro for? They must make u more happy then before and cheer u up when u are feeling down. For example the message joke from Chuan yi . Leon also make me laugh..... U see it is totally different from Marcus. I think it is my limit of meeting the bros. Prophecy!!!!! Cutting hair as the fringe is so irritating..... Poking on my eyes.

Apologise to someone

It maybe too troublesome in writing this post.
you can say it was by force, spamming of the blog, or anything, i dont care.
i mistooken someone for the past few day.
I have been thinking too much within the past few days.
Short post right?
I have a feeling right now. I have a closer feeling with leon and chuan yi but not marcus.
Why? should i heed the advice or just give in?
confused la

The white and black Man prophecy

The April is fully packed with different events. I will be meeting Chuan Yi and Leon to bugis street and consume human meat. I bet it is going to be much more fun than I expected. I have been asking myself, don't you have fun with Marcus moo or yoong kang? Frankly speaking, I do have fun with them. I will meet them at Mac or burger king to consume some supper but the overcome really make me very disappointed. No words could express my agony. If yk could acted more cooler and speak like a man, there isn't a reason for me to deny a good friend. If Marcus could stop using his stubborn and his results to compare or break his promise, I guess we can be a very good good friend, even closer friend, or more. I should heed ur advice at that time. Well, I am going to explain again how does this work.... I remember I explained in deviantart before. I was born in a normal family at first, till my baby brother was borned and he was a jinx to this family. I did not tell my parents before because I was asked to keep this from my parents. My baby brother was someone that is going to take back things that should be taken from my father's past life. I just knew it yesterday. It was the white and black man who visited me in my dream. I asked them is this so important to see me when I am having a new friend or siblings. They replied me a no and they asked me to listen to them. The environment changed to a garden. The garden of black vines. It was so strange, mysterious...... I will repeat their conversation again. As you know some people said that dream could be remember a portion only but I could remember all....
" devin, you are born in this family to protect them, do u still remember?" blackman(bm) said
"obviously I know...... What had just happened?" I asked
" you should know what happened to your family. A person had just passed away, very soon you will attend another funeral. Sorry to tell you this, I just wan to give you some time to prepare yourself." the white man(wm) said
"is it my grandmother?" I asked with a tear rolling down my cheeks.
" heaven secret!!!! Just giving a hint. We still have more bad news to tell you.............(I am skipping the part abt my family bec it is not safe to tell you. Heaven secret, going to tell you the friends part." bm said
" I heard that you have a lot of new friends! you shld have fulfill the prophecy last year but a new prophecy is implemented to control you." bm said
" give up those people or friends that are harming you, keep those who cheer u up and give u a relax life just like ur god big bro." wm said
"moreover, u will have ur first goals before polytechnic admission. The raidiation won't hit ur country. it will head towards to taiwan within this few days and it will subset a bit before heading towards to phillipines. I am just giving a clue and it may not be correct." bm said

I was being awoke by my mum and the conversation just ended in time. I guess I know the right thing to do now. I am going to use all my might to salvage this problem happening in my family. I hope I can dream abt them tonight so I can ask whether I am my an orphan.

Birthday boy

Happy birthday Chuan Yi,17 birthday. Oh my god we are already the same age. T.T I have 7 more mths before my 18 birthday. Then, I can purchase alcohol without fear of being caught. Moreover, I can enter macau casino to bet. I have been waiting for this moment. I have a bad experience working in shop n save. The customer is so troublesome. Out of sudden, she said I don't wan this item but I have already cash out. She demanded a refund of money. Then I have to run To the cashier room to collect the manager key before can do refund of goods in the system. Moreover, I saw one of my so-called enemy. I did not even wan to start a conversation with him because once we start our conversation we will definitely argue like hell. I am really feeling puzzled and stuck in a dilemma. What do I want? A friend that lie to you, does not keep ur promise? Nah, I really don't even wan to find out the answer. Let bygones be bygones. Let me tell you a joke that Chuan Yi anyhow bombed one in the message.
"I am eating my dinner now!", I said.
"siao ah, so late!"cy said
"I will be doing sit up later!" I said.
"desperate of getting six packs? Wan to transfer mine to you?" cy said
"I wan!!!!!!!" I said
"too bad, six packs cannot transfer lolol!! If u just finished ur meal and do sit up, you will vomit like a Merlion!" cy said
" then I will be a tourists attraction in Singapore and appeared on newspaper! Moreover, I will split on u first!" I said
" split on me? I will take a big ball ball to throw on you!" cy said
" I thought durian from esplanade? Big ball ball?" I said
" I love durian!!!! Cannot throw you!!!" cy said
" me too! Next time we go bugis buy and eat and throw the seed to Leon!" I said
" steady!!!! Throw on him" cy said
" I worry that Leon is not a plant eater and he may roar at us. I can run like a leopard but you can't" I said
" I can run faster than him lol" cy said
" if he swallow the sees, his somach will grow durian tree and we got free durian to eat!" I said
" ya lol. Throw him the durian shell too!" cy said
"XD!" I said
You see this converstion, we have so much joke and funny stuff to share, unlike from someone. Acting so cool but no use,.....+_+".
I will post more again if I have the time later!!! Or maybe i will be posting on deviantart abt sth more serious....... See first, happy birthday Chuan Yi!!!!!!!!:))))))

The chosen one

I have someone in my mind that can become my best friend. 2 persons. If got chances to use the big com, directly add them as family members in Facebook. Not going to tell you the name bec the name must be confidential. If u think you are the chosen one, you may message me that you are my best friend and I will message you a special URL which is in deviantart.marcus moo, you have already know so you are not the Chosen one. It was you who give up This position.We may only meet out for a short period of time but I know who treat me well. At last, I got Nichole no. And msn. We begin to chat in msn yesterday. The conversation was so funny till I laugh in mrt. So ps. Moreover, Chuan Yi told me that I am skinny no meat cannot eat so eat Leon one. So much fat. So much laughter. I am late for work!!!!!! Confirm ganna scolding. Shity..... Meeting Leon and Chuan Yi on 4 April. Cannot wait for that day bec we are going to cook each other at Seoul garden. XD

About myself

I have nothing particular important to post for today but I just wan to talk about my current girlfriend. Maybe readers may comment. I knew this girl for the past 3 years. She have been sitting besides me in the class, classmates have been criticize us as couple, but I also deny. Now, I confessed with her recently. I cannot imagine that she make my life so contricted. I cannot have freedom like the usual, a bit also so jealous. My first ex also not like this. My first ex told me that I can do whatever I wan, but just remember to talk to me once a day. She is so considerate. I can flirt with other girl and my first ex don't mind. I wan my old life or lover life, I don't wan to be assemble like a prisoner. I am going to break up with her70%. Although I love her so much, I cannot afford to lose out my youth. I am still young man. I promised myself to have a good family bonding in the future, unlike mine. I wish I could have a bless family, instead of a chaotic one.

New friends in my life

I did not expect to mix with so many friends in the it show. Hmmm, life was great for me. Before I starting posting, I just wan to inform ppl that my English is sucked, so pls try to understand what I write. At the first day of the it show, I was a newbie in the place. There was one guy which was much more experience than me. He knew what are the steps to do. After an hour, I was transferred to the nubox which is located at the fourth floor. I was alone without any assistant. I told myself that I need to Try to sell more items so I can be reemployed for the next it show. After a few hours, I sold my items just like a flash. Then, I began to talk to another girl, Mary. We began our conversation and we have fun together. After the first day, I was exhausted but I told myself not to give up easily. Be a man. Then, I was able to work for the next four day. Oh.... Forgot to talk abt one of my new friend. During the first day, I saw two cool guy walking forward the counter. Leon looked like Wei jian。 I thought he was Wei jian and I planned to walk forward to ask him, but my legs went numb. Let fate decide. If he work with me, I will know the truth. Chuan Yi was his friend, which was my friend starting from today. I am an easy going person, I can mixed with ppl easily, if they don't cheat me or defame me. I can even treat my friends liked gan bro. But I have a gan bro already. XD. I meet another friend in nubox,cleon. We began chatting at our lunch time. We studied in sp, hope that we can eat or chit chat. I looked so stupid....... But never mind. My wish was to become a teacher and migrated from Singapore. This was my path for career. Cleon, Chuan Yi, maybe Leon, hope that we can be friends forever. Thanks for everything néw friends.