A deep thoughts

I did not manage to post last night as I was very tired after a 5hours of work and some window shopping at jurong point. However, i was not working seriously yesterday as I was thinking how to break up with my girlfriend. Why must I break up with her if I still love her? Why must I confess with her then break up after a few weeks? What make me do this decision of breaking up? I still remember that I was in love with her during my secondary school life. Now, I manage to get her love, but I want to break up with her. What am I doing? Am
I a bastard? What should I do? After makin her to be my girlfriend, I thought of going out with her oftenly and many more. We shared food together and care each other. I really don't know what shld I do? If I really do not dare to break up with her, I guess I will still continue this relationship till I went to hong kong. I have already asked my brothers for some comments. Chuan Yi just tell me some ways that I could do, but I don't dare to press the send button. Let change the topic now. I still can remember that I went to ngee Ann poly open house with Marcus moo. We did have a lot of fun and we talked like we were in polytechnic. We went to bugis street to buy shirts, pants and many more. He even ask the girl in the naruto shop whether she is married.+_+" we laugh like a mad person, but now everything changed to the worst. He begin to ignore me, but we said we become friends lol. If friends don't chat oftenly, there will be a slight change in my friendship. Haiz, things do changes when the earth kept on rotating. Hope for the better then