A feeling of love

How should I begin with this post? Hmm.... How abt talking this loving progress? Well, loving someone can be troublesome but the process is much more fun than expected. My gf mum asked my gf to throw my doreamon that I give her and the stick that I gave her as a birthday present. She saw my blog and tears rolling down from her cheek. After hearing this, I could sense a sharp pain on my heart. Is this called love or I just feeling sad for her? Pity her, was my idea at first but after a few minutes, my heart is pounding at a faster rate. What should I do now? She was deeply in love with me. I can feel the presence of love within the environment.why must love be so complicated? My inner still love her but at the outside, I don't love. If I dont see her, I miss her and love her, even cry for her. In the end, I am starting to feel what is love again. Now I have this thought!!!!! I starting to feel that i should get love from someone bec I am not fit for her. I cannot afford a girlfriend expenses, how can I be her boyfriend If I cannot provide gd things for my girlfriend. I am a bitch bastard and a fucking. Shld I continue this relationship? God just tell me what to do? Or shld I seek help from the boiboi member to decide? I am getting worried and feeling heartbroken. I wan to my gf to have a gd life for the future and follow me to be as poor as me.